A initially learned photography as a kid shooting black & white then developing the photos in a dark room, that was a magical time and sparked my interest in photography. As I got older I dabbled in digital photography but wasn't until my kids were born that i really started to get an active interest back in it all.
hi chili! i know how you feel. i was born in hungary and i lived there for 15 years. BUT since my parents were romanian and my name was romanian, i was always an outsider. people made fun of me, my parents and my culture. my name always stood out to them and they never really wanted to acknowledge me as a hungarian, even though i grew up there. i could never really feel one with them and that hurt for a long time. there were some people who accepted me and loved me, but the others… not really. after i moved from budapest to romania, i thought it would get better, because by blood and name im romanian, i share their traditions and everything. but oh boy, i was very wrong. im attending a hungarian minority school, but my classmates hate me so much its crazy. the reason of their hatred towards me is that im hungarian. so in hungary they dont like me cause im romanian and in romania because im hungarian. i accepted it now, im proud of being able to experience multiple cultures. i know people will always find a way to degrade me, so thats why i try to stay positive. self-acceptance is the first step to a happier life, and its so hard, but if you start to love the things in you others hate the hardest, you can become so so so much better. mental health is so important, i tell you this as someone who suffered from severe depression and anxiety caused mostly by self-hatred. not fitting 100 percently in is not something you should be ashamed of. (also, hungarians are quite close-minded, so i wouldnt really care about anything hurtful they say. trust me, there are some accepting, kind people out there, who dont judge you because of your race or culture.) i hope you find your place soon, i know you will
rly beautiful, raw documentation. admirable and honest. <3
hi chili!
i know how you feel. i was born in hungary and i lived there for 15 years. BUT since my parents were romanian and my name was romanian, i was always an outsider. people made fun of me, my parents and my culture. my name always stood out to them and they never really wanted to acknowledge me as a hungarian, even though i grew up there. i could never really feel one with them and that hurt for a long time. there were some people who accepted me and loved me, but the others… not really.
after i moved from budapest to romania, i thought it would get better, because by blood and name im romanian, i share their traditions and everything. but oh boy, i was very wrong. im attending a hungarian minority school, but my classmates hate me so much its crazy. the reason of their hatred towards me is that im hungarian. so in hungary they dont like me cause im romanian and in romania because im hungarian.
i accepted it now, im proud of being able to experience multiple cultures. i know people will always find a way to degrade me, so thats why i try to stay positive.
self-acceptance is the first step to a happier life, and its so hard, but if you start to love the things in you others hate the hardest, you can become so so so much better.
mental health is so important, i tell you this as someone who suffered from severe depression and anxiety caused mostly by self-hatred.
not fitting 100 percently in is not something you should be ashamed of.
(also, hungarians are quite close-minded, so i wouldnt really care about anything hurtful they say. trust me, there are some accepting, kind people out there, who dont judge you because of your race or culture.)
i hope you find your place soon, i know you will
aw Chili! I've watched you for years, and I love your channel. I know how you feel. You can get through this <3
omg i’ve been subscribed u since ur freshman year 😮